watch that sun set

--[flashback to april]--
this is that moment before everything changed...

some beautiful reality

so that night in april, the phone rings, twice.

suddenly there is a pain that i feel so deeply it's like empty teeth
morning grief

i need my family, and i am 6000 miles away

and. i can't go home. other obligations.

there is a blur, time passes
i don't remember a thing
except crying and packing
not only for wintery weather, but for a subletter
my life reduced to a closet

and hawaii just makes fun of me all week, i swear.
all smiley faces and sunshine while i sink into some semblance of a cocoon, some moment of immense sadness. i don't sleep for days.
and then we drive me to get on that plane, the one that takes me to a job.

i don't remember the flight at all. it's as if honolulu becomes seattle...

as if these cloudless skies are reflecting this echo inside

year of the liver

how can this not be personal, when it is.
shaking me
my very core
where the strength should be.

olomana
mott-smith

the places where i have found myself
i was there all along
the places i need to be besides my home

an afternoon of french press coffee and great conversation.
not to mention these two are the only other people i know who got such a fabulous car for next to nothing.
an afternoon in the volvo
god i love town
or maybe i just love faith and analu and the good times we always have.

yes it's true the country mouse needs the city sometimes (often)

and then to kevi's for a different kind town adventure...

jazzminds for tempo valley

hmm. perhaps i finally have a quintessential bathroom myspace photo...
...
i definitely needed some sleep, but you can sleep when you're dead, right.


good times and a beautiful night



eek! it's true. me, the lover of trees, was scared of this one!
...
the day broke through
i found
the north shore, nasty things like a mcgriddle,
beautiful things like the ocean

and the sky

so now i can make art and pack
i know
now.
and it's ok.